[The look in her eyes is something he just felt worth reiterating, if only because he can't actually verbalize how seeing her fury made his chest tighten and ache. It sprung him into action, even though there are still parts of that he can't quite understand himself.
]...Yeah.
[It takes Law a long moment to say even that much, his own gaze shifting away.]
I know it's not exactly the same. But still, I thought that if I killed Ganabelt, that if I gave him what we all knew he deserved... that I'd feel better in the end. [He draws in a breath, quietly.
It's really hard for him to find the right words, but he knows he has to try. He knows he needs Rinwell to understand why he was looking out for her.]
But I didn't, y'know? Killing Ganabelt won't bring my dad back. It won't... give me a chance to say all the things I never got a chance to. I messed up, and maybe if I hadn't run away, or hadn't sided with the Snake Eyes—
[He shakes his head, trying to cull that line of thinking. That's not what he's here to talk to Rinwell about.] A-Anyway, my point is that... I had you guys with me, and it was still an empty victory. I just... didn't think it was right for you to do that all alone, without thinking it through. Not when you've got us all here to support you, too.
[Law did technically have that when they fought Ganabelt, but it wasn't the same. He barely knew any of them at the time, they just had a single shared motivation. It isn't like now, where Law cares a lot about Rinwell, he knows Alphen and all the others do, too. None of them want it for her.]
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Date: 2021-10-06 06:46 pm (UTC)]...Yeah.
[It takes Law a long moment to say even that much, his own gaze shifting away.]
I know it's not exactly the same. But still, I thought that if I killed Ganabelt, that if I gave him what we all knew he deserved... that I'd feel better in the end. [He draws in a breath, quietly.
It's really hard for him to find the right words, but he knows he has to try. He knows he needs Rinwell to understand why he was looking out for her.]
But I didn't, y'know? Killing Ganabelt won't bring my dad back. It won't... give me a chance to say all the things I never got a chance to. I messed up, and maybe if I hadn't run away, or hadn't sided with the Snake Eyes—
[He shakes his head, trying to cull that line of thinking. That's not what he's here to talk to Rinwell about.] A-Anyway, my point is that... I had you guys with me, and it was still an empty victory. I just... didn't think it was right for you to do that all alone, without thinking it through. Not when you've got us all here to support you, too.
[Law did technically have that when they fought Ganabelt, but it wasn't the same. He barely knew any of them at the time, they just had a single shared motivation. It isn't like now, where Law cares a lot about Rinwell, he knows Alphen and all the others do, too. None of them want it for her.]