[ she takes a shaking breath before beginning, totally unable to make eye contact during this. so maybe it's a good thing he's moved to her side — makes it easier to not look at him. she's afraid to see his reaction, honestly. what if, in the worst case, he hates her as much as she hates herself? ]
... I'm the reason Almeidrea found my family. They — Mom and Dad — always told me not to go around casting magic. I promised them I wouldn't. But, one time... I ended up doing it behind their backs. And... and... that's when she found us.
[ her voice becomes increasingly grim throughout her explanation, kept as short as she could so as to not have to speak on it too much. at this point, she just gives in to the tears rolling down her cheeks — they've spent enough time teasing the edges of her eyes, and there's no point in fighting them.
her hands grip at the grass in front of her, almost for safety, as her whole body seems to harden. ]
It's — It's my fault, Law. They're gone because of me. I thought that... if I could take revenge on Almeidrea... some of this guilt would go away. But now you're telling me it'll be different. [ that it's not so simple. ] So — So what am I supposed to do?
[ and now, small hics and sobs can be heard from her, her face fully facing the ground and her hair covering her expression. not that her expression is any sort of secret. maybe this is more than he bargained for, but — she just couldn't hold it in any longer. the thought that maybe, just maybe, law would have an answer to all this drives her. (not to mention how much the guilt and hatred has bubbled over in her heart.) ]
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Date: 2021-10-07 10:55 pm (UTC)[ she takes a shaking breath before beginning, totally unable to make eye contact during this. so maybe it's a good thing he's moved to her side — makes it easier to not look at him. she's afraid to see his reaction, honestly. what if, in the worst case, he hates her as much as she hates herself? ]
... I'm the reason Almeidrea found my family. They — Mom and Dad — always told me not to go around casting magic. I promised them I wouldn't. But, one time... I ended up doing it behind their backs. And... and... that's when she found us.
[ her voice becomes increasingly grim throughout her explanation, kept as short as she could so as to not have to speak on it too much. at this point, she just gives in to the tears rolling down her cheeks — they've spent enough time teasing the edges of her eyes, and there's no point in fighting them.
her hands grip at the grass in front of her, almost for safety, as her whole body seems to harden. ]
It's — It's my fault, Law. They're gone because of me. I thought that... if I could take revenge on Almeidrea... some of this guilt would go away. But now you're telling me it'll be different. [ that it's not so simple. ] So — So what am I supposed to do?
[ and now, small hics and sobs can be heard from her, her face fully facing the ground and her hair covering her expression. not that her expression is any sort of secret. maybe this is more than he bargained for, but — she just couldn't hold it in any longer. the thought that maybe, just maybe, law would have an answer to all this drives her. (not to mention how much the guilt and hatred has bubbled over in her heart.) ]